New year
New year...
Wah!!!! Its real fast. 10 more hours to 2006. Really can't believe it.
Ever since reached the age of 20, each year seems like getting shorter and shorter.
haha is this the sign of fear of getting old ?!?!?!
Nope. definitely not me. I'll gladly welcome all changes that is going to heppen.
End of year 2005... What have i achieved? And what have you achieved? Any regrets in this year?
Achievements- Manage to get my Bachelor Degree without much hiccup.
- Manage to know more friends.
- Manage to win a prize at a funfair. A super big bart. Still lying in my room, any claimer? just leave a comment.
2 smart guys and 2 REALLY big bart.
- Manage to win a Ipod Mini in a survey lucky draw. (haha ya this is for anthony and kevin)
- Still on the process of learning - forgive, forget and move on.
- Learning to take things lightly or even more lightly. Life is short why torture yourself my taking all things so seriously? In the end who give a damn to it?
- Manage to quit smoking. (Praying hard that i won't touch that thing again) (",)
- Manage to live for another year. Thank god... I'm still alive
Goals for 2006- Find a good jobs.
- Be a better friend, i will try to be one.
- Be more family and friends oriented.
- Clear my debts.
- Start saving up.
- Be more tolerance.
What your heart wants
Extract from Westlife - Flying without wings.
"Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be"I really find this paragraph meaningful.
Since young, or should i say since we are knowledgeable, all of us are constantly on the look out for things.
Looking for that something that suit yourself best.
Looking for that something that you think stand out among the rest.
Looking for that something that will fill up the empty space in your jigsaw puzzle.
Looking for that something that will make you want to care for.
While constantly on the look out, how many of us really managed to find that something?If you did, be grateful.
If you are still on the look out, dun give up, at least you did try.
Well... but better know when to stop if not you'll be wasting your whole life searching for something ??that does not EXIST??
How many of us actually get lost during the searching process?There are too many things to choose from that you feel all of them are suitable for you.
You actually forget what you are really looking for in the first place and no longer knows what that thing is.
How many realised that the thing you once think suit yourself best, turn out to be not the actual thing that you are looking for?If thats not the one, forgive forget and move on, don't be afraid of failure, continue the search.
Well... new year approaching. Wish all of your wishes come true and may your search is successful.
Words...
又再一次 被心中的思念征服
心 又再一次 被疼痛占居
悲伤 又再一次 触动了泪根
泪 又再一次 在眼眶里俳回
后悔对你说了不该说的话
因为那不是我的真心话
因为真心话一直在心里
因为我喜欢你我想爱你
因为我的心只想回到过去
Yup its 2 rainbow. No camera effects.
Sweat it out
Yup as what the title written, i just came back from a run.
The second run since i came back to SG.
The first 1 was the one which i run to my grandparents place.
1st run
That was 8+ in the morning and suddenly feel like visiting them.
Immediately get changed and off i go.
Yup i'm the kind of person that will do certain things on impulse.
But there are also few occasions when i'm totally defeated by fear, lack of confidence and courage. Especially in the name of love.
Run pass my primary school.
Run pass the swimming pool where i attended my swimming lesson when i'm young.
Run pass the place where i spent most of my childhood.
Run pass my secondary school.
Feel really nice to be back at these once familiar places.
haha... its nice to be a little boy.
Those were the days which is really joyous and worries, troubles free.
Yup after passing the above mention places, finally i reached my grandparent house.
After visiting 阿公 and 阿妈, began to ask myself.
What is the ideal figure for a human lifespan? 70?
Well i think thats the ideal figure for me.
Live so long for what? Live to face the illness and unpleasant things?
haha quite a negative thought i know.
2nd run
Been at home for the whole day... nothing much to do - improving my resume and looking for jobs online.
Was quite lonely.
Lonely not because i'm alone at home, further more my brother is also at home.
Heard a sentence before - Human feel lonely because they are missing someone.
How true is this sentence? Well only ourself have the answer to it. So whats yours?
Saw my bro, John, online. So ask him out for a run.
Well... felt quite relaxed and fresh after the run.
So go for a run or swim if you are feeling down.
Believe you will feel better after that.
At least it works for me. Somemore can stay fit and trim.
Well.. only hope my this pair of leg don't give up on me so soon.
If not would have to look for other ways.
Just wanna vent my frustration and anger. How i wish i could shout at the top of my voice in real life. Its been a long long long time since i last did this.
Few old articles...
思念
思念，思念着她所有的点点滴滴。
忽然又想起了她. 想她这个时候在作什么.
想她是否睡着了.
好想知道她的境况.
好想听到她的声音.
好想打给她和她聊天.
好想听她说她开心和不愉快.
好想和她分享我的快乐.
好想对她说我好想你… 你知道吗?
看来我也只能这么的想着.
思念她的时候就听听她给我的歌.
思念她的时候就看看和她的照片.
看来我也只能这样的思念着.
也许有一天这思念会渐渐淡化.
也许有一天我可以微笑着思念着她.
人与人
人与人之间的关系.
人与人之间的谎言。
人与人之间的仇恨。
人与人之间的妒嫉。
人与人之间的勾心斗角。
人与人之间的真真假假。
人与人之间的互相利用。
善于玩这游戏者，也是心迹最重的。
单纯无知者，将被人摆布。
Thing i've been asking myself to do...
In life, there are times where we have to learn to let go, else we would be a stumbering block to others and yourself.
There is nothing that we could hold onto for life… even own self, eventually there’ll be a time where you will say goodbye to yourself.
The harder you try to keep the thing will only cause more unhappiness to both parties.
Learn to face the fact of life; learn to accept the unhappy events.
Finally learn to free yourself and learn to live in freedom.
“你说爱情的原因它其中 包含了些什么呢
是否想明白了 从此 就能过得开心了
在你和我来来回回误解 在你和我来来回回沟通后
你和我心中 还能否热烈如昨
从陌生走到熟悉 从熟悉又回到陌生
是否这就是爱情 是和这就是爱情 是否这就是所谓爱情
谁说爱情的原因它其中
包含了悬念诱惑 是否看明白了 从此 就构不成爱情了
在你和我分分合合交手 在你和我分分合合周旋后
你和我心中 还能否热烈如昨
你和我心中 还能否还有爱情呢“
Once heard this from a priest in a church in Australia: "Learn to carry the "cross" in whatever situation. Do not let the cross overpower yourself."
Well its up to you on how you interpret the quote...
At the crossroads once again
Believe the title is in one of the song. Anyone know which songs?!?!
Yup... i'm facing this now.
Actually i'm at the junction of different aspect of my life.
At the junction of my career, my emotional life.
Each junction is with lots of different roads.
End of all roads is been heavily fogged.
Which 1 should i take? Which road is the one that is meant for me?
I'm feeling quite down now. I'm feeling lost now.
I'm feeling soooooooooo confused now.!.!.!.
Some friends are quite surprise when i said that.
They say i should be glad that i'm back home. Be back in SG. Be back to the country that i grew up in.
"I should be happy and enjoying every bits of this old home.
I should be glad that i've got my degree.
I should be glad that i've got to know few new friends when at Australia."
But its totally the opposite now. I feel the air in SG is full of stress.
The place is so cramp up and i can't breathe freely and each breath i take require more strength than the last 1.
Is there something wrong with me?!?!?
I should be happy that i can finally come back and look for that person.
The one and only person that is so special and irresistable to me.
The person that could brighten and darken my day without much effort.
Should i go look for her?
Last night in Brisbane
Worried and lost when first reach here.
In this totally new country and City - Brisbane City.
Totally different environment and culture.
Totally different mother tongue spoken.
Totally different skin and hair colour.
Totally different management systems.
Everywhere seems so new and unfamiliar.
Except for the 2 person who is always by my side.
2 mental and spirtual support.
2 support that you could count on.
Times really flies without knowing.
After going through numerous events and gathering.
After knowing a few new friends and places for gathering.
Here we are, at the last night in this starting to get familiar city. Brisbane City.
Where all friends are back in Singapore.
Nothing left but memories of the past.
Memories of unpleasant and pleasant events.
Memories of having pot luck,
memories of cooking together,
memories of enduring through the night rushing for assignments,
memories of burning midnight oil preparing for exams,
memories of figuring our ways around Queensland,
memories of having stuck in the middle of the road when the car break down,
memories of all happiness and sadness times.
Lots and lots of memories.
Goodbye brisbane and friends in Australia.
Thanks for all the memories, Briabane.
Finally thanks to kevin and Anthony.
Last week in Australia
4 days... Thats the number of days i've left in Australia -
History of Australia.Its a country with lots of interesting things, people and culture.
People normally greet each other with "Good day", or "How's it going?".
"Mate" is a term commonly used between friends, son and dad.
At the age of 15 to 16, teens here no longer stay with their parents. They would rent a room or apartment and stay by themself.Parent here have the right to request their kids to start working and pay for their own expenses. Parent can even request kids to contribute to household expenses.
As early as 10am, you can see people sitting in a pub drinking beer. The first time i saw that, i ask myself secretly "How come their lifestyle is so relax?". According to one of my aussie friend, Australia has overtake Germany as the nation that consume most beer annually.
Drivers are also more friendly here compare to SG, where all drivers seems like rushing to hell.
One thing that i hate here is that while you were walking at the pathway. Out of a sudden some crazy fellow will scream/shout at you. Even worse, some will throw eggs or packets of urine.
Thats the few good and bad of Australia.
OLA - A
Observe behaviour of others
Listen to words of others
Absorb what you deem good from others
All the above easier say than done
Observe - How many of us in everyday life could really notice good behaviour of others and adopt it? Before speaking of notice good behaviour of others, in the first place does each of us really go take note of the person you interacted with?
Listen - Listen to wisdom that come from others and integrated with own knowledge. Ya you might be able to catch useful information during conversation but how many actually remember it few days later?
Absorb - In the end how much of the above two go into your brain and heart? Some will go in but i believe those were the ones that you are really interested in.
Nevertheless everyday is a new day - begining of a new learning process. At the end of the day - ending of the process - try to reflect what have you learnt.
What i've learnt today - England has allow sex of the same kind to get married legally.
* Elton John is among the first to register for such marriage.
What's your view on this new law?
Late but never too late
Well although blogging had been going on for a period of time, for me to start now its really a bit late. But who caressssss "Better late than never" right. Who knows if i start early, i might be even more famous than xiaxue. Now she won't be the one writing for New Paper it will be me the famous blog king.
But frankly speaking, is her posting really that interesting to attract that amount of viewers everyday? Or is it because its just all the "hum sup/ tiko/ 好色/ Miang(pervert in malay)" guys checking out if there is any new photos.
At least now here i am! Blogging away. My first blog and my first posting on the web!
